Hi. Let me introduce myself. No, that doesn’t sound like me. That’s calling for attention.

Hi. Thank you for visiting my new journaling project. I’m not that great of a writer but I have completed my first one million words with my previous journaling project, My Life Journal. This project is going to be a lot more focused on me specifically rather than overarching stories with me as a participant. I want to start focusing on the divergent thinking that I experience to help make sense of answering, “Who am I today?”

I close my eyes. I clear my mind to a null point. I experience time dilation. I open my eyes. I’m always curious how long I was gone for. Could be a minute, could be 30. The longest one I’ve experienced would be about 3 hours. The perspective I have of that experience is peace. I don’t have any desires. I’m not happy nor sad. I just, am. I am the best version of myself and I’m doing it with ease.

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Cut! Did you even understand the question?

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I described what I do. What I do is part of who I am. I’m wanting to establish the understanding of what exactly I do. Is there a way of living that doesn’t require action? I think that is the path I’m starting to define for myself. My day off is on Sunday. It is difficult for me to do nothing unless its meditating. Shower, breakfast, grocery shopping, cleaning, Youtube, Gems of War and more cleaning. I can do that in less than 2 hours. So what of the rest of the day? What else is there that is who I am today?