This is why I admire my friend Sami.

Earlier this evening we were telling Matt about Ben’s birthday card that was created.

See what I did there? I didn’t say it was the one I made or acknowledge your submission.

This became such a back n forth that was so familiar to Sami, she was able to overhead slam, “this isn’t a pissing contest Thomas!” And in that moment, I was first introduced what it felt like to have a mic boom drop.

She let me know, as a friend, hey, you’re pissing all over the place. I apparently was unaware. So I stopped.

She proceeded to continue peeing all over the place LOL

I don’t know why yet, but I admire this from her. The way I feel about it, this is a sister jumping into a fight between me and a bully. She’s just as willing to get as dirty as I can, so you stay clean, I got this.

I really do admire the hell out of Sami. I mean this with as much respect as I can fester with my own sister right now; for me as a brother, this is the bar for what I need from my sister.

Sami doesn’t compare to Angela in the positive way I want to acknowledge and experience. (This may break your brain but I don’t know a way to simplify this thought. The way you treat me, I feel very much like an older brother. It’s comfortable, brother to sister and visa versa. The way our candor is. Our banter is family. However you can shorten that, I’d love to hear.

I hold no ill will that was ever received negatively. I’m done holding on to that. There’s so much good that I get to experience with Sami and her husband Matt. This is how lucky this rabbit is. 18 years together, ups n downs, they are not afraid of the burden they carry. They navigate with so little effort, it’s a real highly functional, loving, empathetic, just an amazing family. The past few years, they’ve allowed me to be part of this good experienced.

It’s in this moment, it became clear.

I get it. Clearly I know it well enough to cement the thought into this blog.

I’m starting to understand thy self.

I’m starting to see my constellation.