Reflecting on my musical journey, I realize how each album has been a companion through the complexities of my life, especially as someone navigating the intricate landscape of neurodivergence. Music has been more than just a backdrop; it’s been a mirror, a guide, and at times, a refuge.
Mannheim Steamroller – Christmas (1984)
This album introduced me to the fusion of classical and modern sounds, resonating with my appreciation for innovation within tradition. Its intricate arrangements appealed to my analytical mind, while the familiar melodies provided comfort during the holiday seasons. I listen to this album at least a few times a month since first hearing it Christmas, 1984.
Enya – Watermark (1988)
The ethereal tones of Watermark introduced me to a world of serenity. “Orinoco Flow” became an anchor during overstimulating times, giving me a place to breathe. It was here I learned that music could be a safe harbor, a calm amidst the storm of my thoughts.
Enya – Shepherd Moons (1991)
Building on Watermark, this album expanded my appreciation for introspection. Tracks like “Caribbean Blue” were a reminder to slow down, to reflect. For someone whose mind often races, Enya’s music offered a meditative pause—a much-needed reset button.
Enya – The Memory of Trees (1995)
Nature and nostalgia intertwined in The Memory of Trees. Its orchestral beauty reflected my growing awareness of the world’s complexity and my place within it. I found myself drawn to its layered arrangements, mirroring the multi-faceted lens through which I experience life.
Trans-Siberian Orchestra – Christmas Eve and Other Stories (1996)
The symphonic rock opera captivated me with its storytelling and complex compositions. It mirrored the duality I often feel, balancing intense energy with deep emotion, much like my experiences with ADHD and being a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP).
The Prodigy – The Fat of the Land (1997)
This album’s raw energy and rebellious spirit resonated during times when I grappled with internal chaos. Its aggressive beats matched the intensity of my emotions, providing an outlet for the restlessness that often accompanies neurodivergent experiences. One of the fondest memories I have with this album is with my friends from Alamance county, hanging out at Alyssa’s house, drinking tequila, with Eric, Tara, and others.
Chumbawamba – Tubthumper (1997)
The anthemic “Tubthumping” became a personal mantra during challenging times. Its message of resilience and defiance mirrored my journey through various diagnoses, reminding me to persevere despite setbacks. Most people stop with Tubthumping, but this whole album is very stimulating for me.
Trans-Siberian Orchestra – The Christmas Attic (1998)
Continuing my affinity for TSO, this album’s exploration of nostalgia and discovery paralleled my own introspective journeys. The blend of rock and classical elements spoke to my multifaceted nature, embracing both the analytical and the creative.
Alice DeeJay – Who Needs Guitars Anyway? (2000)
The upbeat Eurodance tracks provided a sense of escapism, allowing me to momentarily step away from the complexities of my mind. The repetitive rhythms and catchy melodies offered a soothing predictability amidst life’s uncertainties. This album is totally tied to my step-brother Phillip. Philip exposed me to the real world. Thanks to his efforts it made me getting out in 2009 so much easier and familiar.
Trans-Siberian Orchestra – Beethoven’s Last Night (2000)
This rock opera’s intricate narrative and fusion of classical motifs with modern rock mirrored my own search for identity and meaning. It resonated with the intellectual curiosity and depth that come with being twice exceptional (2e).
Enya – A Day Without Rain (2000)
“Only Time” became a theme for moments of reflection. This album marked a period of healing, as its soothing melodies offered solace during uncertain times. Enya’s ability to capture emotion without overwhelming mirrored my own search for balance.
Trans-Siberian Orchestra – The Lost Christmas Eve (2004)
The culmination of TSO’s Christmas trilogy accompanied a period of reflection and acceptance. Its themes of redemption and closure aligned with my journey towards self-understanding and embracing my neurodivergent identity.
Through these 12 albums, my musical journey reflects the complexity of my Alphabet Soup. Each album, in its unique way, has been a chapter in my story, a moment of clarity, chaos, or calm. Together, they form a symphony that celebrates the dualities and harmonies of life. From Mannheim Steamroller’s innovation to The Prodigy’s rebellion, from Enya’s serenity to TSO’s grandeur, these albums are the soundtrack of a life lived authentically and unapologetically.
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